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Dearest Kak Yasmin:

I think i should write in English + Malay,no matter how poor in this two language i am, because this is a letter for you.Ya Kak, untuk kamu, khususnya.

Listening to the <Talentime>soundtrack now.

Kept thinking bout what we chat recently,no matter at gmail or  Taipei.

I miss you too! I am sorry for tak sempat to give you the answer, so regret that i'm not online when you wrote to me the day before you rushed to the hospital,yes i miss you too, can you hear my answer darling?

I will spend my whole life to miss you,my teacher,my friend,my Kak,my angel.

 Let me guess, a faithful Muslim like you maybe will say:" yang, let'sfollow the God's will,and this is the "Tao","Tao" have its own way,we must observe the changing of the nature, the "Tao" won't go wrong.

But yang, it just to sudden for me......i even tak sempat to answer your mail......

Please give me some time to be brave again,ok yang?

I will remember whatever you said, and what we discuss.

You said to Malaysian:“our children is colourblind,should't we kept them that way?”

You said to me:"Beng Hock must not die in vain." "We must fight for Malaysia bersatu."  

At our last chat few days ago, you said let's promise ourselves that we won't let our children and us be like them.（Actually this is part of the reason i wrote"光芒"，which mean "Light"）

And i will continue to do what you wish Malaysia and Malaysian to be, janji.

Rest in peace,enjoy your meal with endless "xiu lat jiu" like you always want to.

Jangan nakal-nakal di sana, ya?

Love,

Your Ah Sen

PERGI

Sayu, tepisah

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